Am I less than anybody else?

It was the middle of the night.

She was sure I would be sleeping or busy.

Deep inside she wished for me to text her back (she shared with me later).

"You know what I realized today? I don't think I truly had a chance with him"

My eyes were open.. and after less than a second… המשך…

I was waiting four months for that.

I haven’t seen them more than one and a half year.

To be honest, it felt that I haven’t seen them since November 2012 as I wasn’t really there… just physically.

Although I spent 10 months in Israel before I left again, I wasn’t myself. I have wrapped myself with mask and shut myself and my heart from everyone (even if I was going out and smile).

As part of me like to be well planned and the other side of me like to be spontaneous, I tried as much as I can to keep my mind open. המשך…

Bangkok.

Sitting in a cafe near the hotel where I was staying.

We met for the last time more than two years ago. I was different Liat… someone that even myself didn’t know.

It was a “touching” meeting as if we had never parted or thousands of miles had cut off between us. המשך…

Maybe I choose wrong. Have I done it completely wrong ? maybe it is a huge mistake that I'm not willing to pay the price. I've got hurt too much at the last few years.

Maybe I should stop…

“When I write I can shake off all my caves, my sorrow disappears, my spirit is revived”

Amsterdam, April 2017. Holocaust Memorial Day.

המשך…

There was a time that every morning she used to wake up for a txt with the title of "while you were sleeping".

Every morning, day after day, she asked herself how her friend coupe with this crazy rhythm of things, especially when everything happens during working day…

Other friends of her describe her life at the last years like a roller coaster, another said it’s a hurricane and she is living in the middle of the eye of it. She just can't see it, as she is inside, so how she can know.

Yet, it was right.

Disneyland. Hong Kong. המשך…